do you remember the first time you were called annoying?
how your breath stopped short in your chest
the way the light drained from your eyes, though you knew your cheeks were ablaze
the way your throat tightened as you tried to form an argument that got lost on your tongue.
your eyes never left the floor that day.
you were 13.

you’re 20 now, and i still see the light fade from your eyes when you talk about your interests for “too long,”
apologies littering every other sentence,
words trailing off a cliff you haven’t jumped from in 7 years.
i could listen to you forever, though i know speaking for more than 3 uninterrupted minutes makes you anxious.
all i want you to know is that you deserve to be heard
for 3 minutes
for 10 minutes
for 2 hours

there will be people who cannot handle your grace, your beauty, your wisdom, your heart;
mostly because they can’t handle their own.

but you will never be
and have never been
“too much.”

"this started as something completely different, but everything comes back to you, doesn’t it?" - tyler ford (via tylerthelatteboy)

I really needed to hear this.. (via tentacles-and-stardust)

It’s official, I’m taking a vacation to LA next month! I haven’t traveled anywhere in ages, and this is the first time I’m traveling on my own accord! (I’m not including trips to my family cottage - that I visit every single year, or the trip to AZ I took that was 100% work) I’m so excited! My good friend Aisha (that I’ll be staying with) will have just turned 21, I’ll get to go to the beach, go to Disneyland for the first time, and just explore a new city! I can’t wait!



Robin Williams | 1951-2014

My friend sent me a text telling me that Robin Williams had died. I didn’t want to believe it. I hoped that when I searched his name I would find one of those fakey websites that are just created to generate buzz/views via shares on facebook. But when I saw that not only it was true, but that it’s a speculated suicide I started to tear up. Robin Williams was one of those actors that was very much apart of my childhood. I watched Hook, Aladdin, Jumanji, many times. Mrs. Doubtfire countless times, it never got old for me. And as I got older, I watched Dead Poet Society in high school, I remember not being excited because I didn’t know what it was about, and it looked kinda boring, but by the end being in love with it. And watching Good Will Hunting when I got a Netflix account. He was a marvelously talented human being. He made me belly laugh, and he was one of the first actors that made me love humor and comedy.

I wish that people would take mental illness/depression more seriously. I wish people would talk about it more. Remind people that it is important to reach out to those aren’t doing well, educate people on how to talk to someone if they’re depressed. Make it so that there is no longer shame in admitting that you aren’t doing well. And continue to promote the recourses available to those who are struggling. Depression is very real. I myself struggle with anxiety and depression and it is the scariest thing to feel so helpless that you don’t feel as though life is worth living. We need to get rid of the stigma around depression so that this doesn’t have to happen. Whether it is a celebrity or a high school student, these lives are worth saving.